It is getting harder and harder, as this year of rejections continues, to have any idea at all about what I'm supposed to really be doing with my life. I mean, I thought the lay off was a pretty clear sign, but maybe I misread it...
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Chelsea, you may still get in to one of the programs you want. But if you don't could you take classes while working a day (or night) job? I realize that isn't a welcome solution but does it have to be all or nothing in order for you to continue writing and learning? don't mean to be out of line here, just hate to see you paint yourself into a corner...
Caroline, I will keep writing. I am just not sure what i'm supposed to DO.
I have always been so afraid to fail, that I have rarely tried things that are hard. That sounds so presumptuous, or spoiled or something. But I just don't know how to shrug off all this rejection.
It IS hard, chica, no two ways about it. Maybe you're practicing doing the hard things so that you can tackle even bigger, better challenges? not being pollyanna here, it really does (for me, at least) take practice to develop big deal risk taking 'muscles'. These days I actually use my "i'm scared to fail" feeling as an indicator that that is what I'm supposed to do. Kind of using fear of whatever as a compass. maybe it will be so for you, too.
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